Just Face It!
Confronting the self is a strong discipline. I think it’s time to move beyond the cliché, “I’m my own worst enemy,” and deal with the, “inner me.” The inner struggles, opposing thought-patterns, inconsistencies, contrary actions, disobedient ways define the enemy.
During childhood, I was involved in piano and voice lessons. My parents were faithful to the obligations of practice. I’d sit at the keyboard and play for hours. I desired to perfect the lessons from the Professor. All seemed to balance quite well–until asked by my Dad to sing. I would literally freeze. One day he made me stand for long minutes. I fought, cried refused to obey. Fear gripped my vocal chords, the words, and notes. When I finally conjured the gumption, the sound was extremely low. Dad accepted my fear and stubborness, but uttered, “I only wish that I could sing and play the piano.”